> ## Content Index > Fetch the complete content index at: https://www.tom-shaw.uk/llms.txt > Use this file to discover other available public pages before exploring further. # Pig People - URL: https://www.tom-shaw.uk/pig-people/ - Published: 2024-08-26T08:00:46.000Z - Updated: 2024-08-26T08:00:46.000Z - Description: A warning from childhood recounted as a poem. - Author: Tom Shaw - Tags: Poems, #substack, #substack-type-newsletter, #substack-access-everyone, #Import 2026-10-24 12:50 *Music:* [*Apocalypse Choir - Lisa Hammer*](https://freemusicarchive.org/music/lisa-hammer/soundtrack-series-horror-and-dread/apocalypse-choir-lisa-hammermp3/?ref=tom-shaw.uk) --- > Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when publishedI remember the warning well. > I remember it warned of hell. > Beginning when the darkness fell > and lasting 'til the morning's swell... > > I remember, at first, the face, > of my mother by the bookcase. > It was my childhood home, that place, > and I about four in that space. > It was my mother's face, at first, > until it morphed and warped. She cursed- > Gruesome at best, wicked at worst, > out from her nose a snout did burst. > > My horrified scream was unhinged, > unknown compared to how I whinged > at the mundane miseries. Tinged > in blackened light, my dad infringed - > At first, his face bore the same fear > as mine, but as my mum drew near > to him, he cried out a hoarse sneer, > features shifting to match his dear. > > I remember the warning well. > I remember it warned of hell. > Beginning when the darkness fell > and lasting 'til the morning's swell... > > As I broke through the window pane, > acquiring an ankle sprain, > I grimaced my way through the pain > and forged onto the garden plain. > But out there - flanking either side - > swines of people came like a tide. > Snorting in some contorted pride, > they wanted me as their hog bride. > > Hobbling at break-neck slug-speed, > tackling garden jungle-weed, > battling every thorny bleed, > I still could not escape their greed. > My hide was drenched and soaking wet, > yet they charged without breaking sweat. > A pack of pig-people, close-set, > grabbed and turned me into their pet- > > I remember the warning well. > I remember it warned of hell. > Beginning when the darkness fell > and lasting 'til the morning's swell... > > My muscles screamed in agony > as I startled from that slumber. > I clutched my face in a frenzy: > no pig-ears, no gnarly gnashers... > To the mirror! I must be sure! > Galloping at too slow a speed > for the anxiousness within me, > I caught my reflection, and me... > I am me! Thank God! I am me! > No horrid pig or boar to see! > Collapsing back in much relief > that I had no trotters, just feet. > > But soon I learnt I was not free. > For when the time came to emerge > and meet the face of another, > something didn't sit right with me > in the people I encountered. > It was as if their features were... > twitching > itching > flinching > squinching > and then it all came back to me - > > I remember the warning well. > I remember it warned of hell. > Beginning when the darkness fell > and lasting 'til the morning's swell... > > And while I remained (only just!) > composed in my social duties, > inside me there stirred a writhing > and a reminder of that night. > When I look, their face is normal - > but at the same time piggish, too. > On in life I went, but on and > on and on I was entwined in > visions mashed up by monstrous swine. > Their greedy guzzling of wine, > and their gluttony for fodder. > In their Lord of the Flies-like rage > those warpigs flaunt their lust for hate. > The hogs who hog conformity > with dirty animal vices, > they conjure up boarish squealing, > cackling that I’m not yet free. > > I knew then what I had to do. > I sniffed out a cottage far-out > from the pigsties of the city; > a truffle to ease my troubles. > I stuffed a case and went at once > to butcher this mind-beast alone. > > I remember the warning well. > I remember it warned of hell. > Beginning when the darkness fell > and lasting 'til the morning's swell... > > I hacked away at that nightmare, > tearing limbs of hair from my head, > each dice and slice did not suffice > and left meat that I could not eat. > Ruminating on its carcass, > I felt carved out, as if my gut > instinct had turned in to offal. > Had I not escaped? Was it all > just denial? A porky-pie? > Was my humanity a lie? > My greedy guzzling of wine > and my gluttony for fodder? > And my Lord of the Flies-like rage > like warpigs flaunting lust for hate? > Like hogs who hog conformity > with dirty animal vices, > conjuring up boarish squealing? > My muscles screamed in agony > as my mind was torn asunder. > I clutched my face in a frenzy: > Some pig-ears and gnarly gnashers... > To the mirror! I must be sure! > Galloping at too slow a speed > for the anxiousness within me, > I caught my reflection, and me - > It was my own face there at first, > until it morphed and warped, I cursed - > gruesome at best, wicked at worst, > out from my nose a snout did burst. > It got me! Dear God! It got me! > I am a horrid pig to see! > Collapsing back in disbelief > on the trotters that were my feet. > > All this time I had held judgement > for those herds of sinners who meant > to point out what was unpleasant > in me holding that resentment. > Within that greed for a hatred > that violates life – the sacred - > I’ll let that warning be wasted > should I continue frustrated. > > And so, with a snivelling snort, > I let go the need for retort. > My roasting fury I cut short > And then, I could begin to sort > all that raging that I did hog. > As I forgave, within the bog > of my mind, I could then unclog > the fear that gripped me in its fog. > > I remember the warning well. > I remember it warned of hell. > Beginning when the darkness fell > and lasting 'til the morning's swell. > And as I left my solitude > in the countryside’s interlude, > the fields had pigs and all their brood, > yet I felt only gratitude. ###### Pig People \~ A Poem by Tom Shaw --- [Subscribe now](#/portal/signup) --- This poem is a highly personal one for me, and a send-off to a nightmare I had in my early childhood that has remained within me and in easy reach of my consciousness ever since it happened. I can even name the exact date that it happened - 21st April 2007\. It was the night that the Doctor Who episode “Daleks in Manhattan” aired; an episode where - surprise surprise - Daleks are turning people into half-pig slaves to help them accomplish their plans. Pretty horrific for the average person, but for a 6-year-old? Absolutely terrifying. So it’s perhaps no wonder I had the nightmare I did that night, that played out pretty much exactly as the poem describes it. ![Doctor Who: Daleks in Manhattan (Review) | the m0vie blog](https://cdn.mymidnight.blog/a14ac55a4f27472c5d894ec1c3c743d2/substack-post-media-s3-amazonaws-com/public/images/4646a1f3-ab73-46ac-986c-45b6c92b3235_400x209.jpg) It was this scene from “Daleks of Manhattan” - the reveal of Laszlo’s transformation at the hands of the Daleks - that I remember stayed with me as I went to bed that night, providing fuel for the nightmare that would then unfold in my sleep. Whereas so many other dreams and nightmares that I have had - even others that had significant emotional impacts on me at the time - this is one of the few that I remember in such vivid and stark detail. Having remained so pertinent and ingrained in my memory for all this time, it certainly felt like I was being called really sit with it and understand what little me was trying to make sense of with this piece. [Dream A Little DreamWe strain to slow the pass of time, halt the daily march and drill that drives us sightless toward the e…![](https://cdn.mymidnight.blog/a14ac55a4f27472c5d894ec1c3c743d2/substack-post-media-s3-amazonaws-com/public/images/c307d39e-3048-4ec9-b511-12a1a31ba9aa_800x800.png)Tom ShawTom Shaw![](https://cdn.mymidnight.blog/a14ac55a4f27472c5d894ec1c3c743d2/substack-post-media-s3-amazonaws-com/public/images/04a1154d-985a-43dc-a8df-65fba964987e_1152x640.jpg)](https://www.tom-shaw.uk/dream-a-little-dream/) Growing up, I was always someone who wanted to be more than just your average Joe - or perhaps, more than the mass of ‘pig people’ - and pushed myself academically as a route to achieve that. But being out of any crowd can be a lonely place, [as I experienced time and time again](https://www.tom-shaw.uk/why-bother/). And I experienced it because I kept pushing myself away from their perceived vices and downfall. ‘Anything but that!’, so to speak, still subconsciously guided by the nightmare that, should I falter in any way, I too am destined to become a “pig person”. But ‘othering’ only services to make the division, the loneliness, and the trauma worse. If I am so keen to lambaste others for their flaws, it can only mean there is some deep-seated flaw in me that I am desperately trying to run from. And the more I do it, the more I know there’s an absolute pig sty of shit somewhere inside me. Mastery of the outer world only comes from mastery of the inner world. [Am I Something They Despise?Oh why do they not hear my cries?! This is engineered division! Am I something they despise? Alas they won’t open their eyes to all the evil precision…![](https://cdn.mymidnight.blog/a14ac55a4f27472c5d894ec1c3c743d2/substack-post-media-s3-amazonaws-com/public/images/c307d39e-3048-4ec9-b511-12a1a31ba9aa_800x800.png)Tom ShawTom Shaw![](https://cdn.mymidnight.blog/a14ac55a4f27472c5d894ec1c3c743d2/substack-post-media-s3-amazonaws-com/public/images/8f6a4d72-45ef-438e-b01c-a72eae293a1d_1152x640.jpg)](https://www.tom-shaw.uk/am-i-something-they-despise/) And that’s how this poem, “Pig People” was born. Thank you all for taking the time to read and listen. 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